Saturday, November 21, 2009
it seems like i only update my blog once a week. today was ok. maybe not for sport climbing. i really tried my best not to let the rope slack ok. its the best i can do. or maybe some people might say this is not supposed to be the excuse of the _________. gah. at home its also like that. mom uses that to threaten me. i dont know what to do. but ytd night was nice cos i did a drawing of my chipmunk stuffed toy and this afternoon i drew COOKIE MONSTER!! haha. white colour pencil has nice effects on coloured paper. kayaking ytd was a disaster. capsizing drill and everything. lol. fish loves to capsize but tmrw die die cannot capsize if not our food and water going to be wasted. k. trying to find motivation to study maths and i cant wait for monday to get my books purchased. :)))))))) study earlier everyone, cos you'll need it.
5:08 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
hmm. ytd wasnt as bad as i thought la. haha. :))))))))) super happy about that. today was so-so but still nice. when i say nice, i mean it :) going to study study these holidays cos i see that the sec 3s are struggling. i will not land myself in this state. tmrw's streaming results. fish is so nervous that she cant sleep. for me, i didnt really have any feelings except for some kind of anticipation so i can get my books and start studying a little. ahh.. back to the good old days where i feel like studying everyday. and not forgetting, i'll still have to plan for sc. i'm going to make it scolding, discouragement proof. hehe. and agnes was being really nice on monday by giving me pinches and mock punches. haha. i missed her as a senior so much you know. k. got to eat dinner and bathe before studying/family time. yeah. evenings are for family. dont say i didnt prioritise. gah. tmrw's parents off day. nvm.
5:38 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
suddenly i dont feel so happy now. its not like me to make anyone angry, well, for the exception of my family, its not like me to make any teacher angry, dissapointed, fed up with me. gah. this feeling sucks. but you know what? having to choose between 2 is already very difficult. why cant they understand it? why cant they understand that this is more important to me cos i have to take charge next year and i am leaving no chances for it to fail? why cant they understand that i'm trying to make this dream come true? this dream, has been there ever since i was young. and now, i am just this short of achieving it. why cant you let me put all my soul and heart into achieving and actually living my dream? or, why cant i understand you? i dont know what is happening, but these few days i really feel like breaking down. but i try to look on the bright side. it took me loads of effort. i regretted reading those entries. i really regretted. but all i know is that i'm going to get a hell load of scoldings and misunderstandings and stares and glares and all things negative tmrw. this is so not the day that i am looking forward to. and i want to find something or some place or someone who can just let me forget all this and let me take things positively.
4:21 PM
hey all. havent been updating for quite a while due to hectic schedule again. considering to put this blog as private or just delete it. but i dont want to delete it cos it means something to me. :)
i have noticed that some sec 1s or even sec 2s want to quit SC. well, here's a piece of advice:
dont give up no matter how much scoldings/discouragements/unhappiness there is. however, we cant stop you if you want to quit. you decide whether you want to attend and participate fully in the activities or not. in short, its your choice. i'm not going to force you guys to attend the activities. in fact, i have never forced. but perseverence is the key. it happened to my batch last year. when the leadership development started, we had to get 2 classrooms just to accomodate everyone. but now, the number has dwindled down to less than 20. or less than 10, if strictly speaking. the scoldings and discouragements were just things that made you stronger in a way. well, if you consider them as things that made you stronger. its what you have to face in the future, its how things are done when you grow up. these just prepare you. dont you think that we can be better? keep criticising your own work, to make it better. no plan is going to be perfect with one try. plans are being criticised and thus being improved. criticism is something that you have to accept. it makes you realise the reality. the higher the standards are, the more you achieve because you follow a standard that is higher than anyone. and because of that, you are not only good, but great. i know this paragraph is boring, but this is what i have to say.
KEEP PERSERVERING! :)
yup yup. with that said, i no longer regretted going for yesterday. it made me realise how unprepared i was. it made me realise how much more i could still achieve. it allowed me to be independent, to work with my team mates closely. it also tested on my commitment.
:)
i have noticed that some sec 1s or even sec 2s want to quit SC. well, here's a piece of advice:
dont give up no matter how much scoldings/discouragements/unhappiness there is. however, we cant stop you if you want to quit. you decide whether you want to attend and participate fully in the activities or not. in short, its your choice. i'm not going to force you guys to attend the activities. in fact, i have never forced. but perseverence is the key. it happened to my batch last year. when the leadership development started, we had to get 2 classrooms just to accomodate everyone. but now, the number has dwindled down to less than 20. or less than 10, if strictly speaking. the scoldings and discouragements were just things that made you stronger in a way. well, if you consider them as things that made you stronger. its what you have to face in the future, its how things are done when you grow up. these just prepare you. dont you think that we can be better? keep criticising your own work, to make it better. no plan is going to be perfect with one try. plans are being criticised and thus being improved. criticism is something that you have to accept. it makes you realise the reality. the higher the standards are, the more you achieve because you follow a standard that is higher than anyone. and because of that, you are not only good, but great. i know this paragraph is boring, but this is what i have to say.
KEEP PERSERVERING! :)
yup yup. with that said, i no longer regretted going for yesterday. it made me realise how unprepared i was. it made me realise how much more i could still achieve. it allowed me to be independent, to work with my team mates closely. it also tested on my commitment.
:)
12:46 PM
Sunday, November 08, 2009
currently slacking now, with some plans to study/ regain my rest. hmmm. yeap. ytd was memorable. :) finally got to link people. sorry for the delay. and i seriously have nothing to do. i do really truly hope ms ang will give a positive reply to my message. oh. i do i do. yup. k. got to go play some games. holidays are boring.....
3:04 PM
Saturday, November 07, 2009
g-o-o-d j-o-b, good job good job!
haha. this is for my fellow student councillors who went to the teacher's forum today to present the Ultra Filtration device. yup yup. you guys really did a great job. even mr loke had to agree :))))
i need to have a break someday, but not now. many things are going on but i'm glad one thing's finally off my mind :D
haha. this is for my fellow student councillors who went to the teacher's forum today to present the Ultra Filtration device. yup yup. you guys really did a great job. even mr loke had to agree :))))
i need to have a break someday, but not now. many things are going on but i'm glad one thing's finally off my mind :D
4:06 PM
Friday, November 06, 2009
back from gunung lambak trip :D
here's some points that i've learnt:
-you can inconvenience yourself but not others
- nature can be very harsh at times
-appreciate what you have, in short, appreciate civilisation :D
- i learnt to think for others more
- responsibility for personal and group equipment
- to develop good HABITS
all were learnt under harsh scoldings but were meant for us to learn.
i dreamt that i was dancing. haha. IN MY DREAMS LA. i cant dance but somehow, a part of me says yes. this feeling has been there for very long already. lol. i'm being more lame and random by the days and minutes.
got rehearsal later for water talk. so, BYE!
here's some points that i've learnt:
-you can inconvenience yourself but not others
- nature can be very harsh at times
-appreciate what you have, in short, appreciate civilisation :D
- i learnt to think for others more
- responsibility for personal and group equipment
- to develop good HABITS
all were learnt under harsh scoldings but were meant for us to learn.
i dreamt that i was dancing. haha. IN MY DREAMS LA. i cant dance but somehow, a part of me says yes. this feeling has been there for very long already. lol. i'm being more lame and random by the days and minutes.
got rehearsal later for water talk. so, BYE!
11:17 AM
Sunday, November 01, 2009
oh crap. i am trying to forget but it kept coming back. what the world. but its ok. i believe that my almost hectic life will make me forget. yup. i believe so. :)
GUNUNG LAMBAK TRIP TMRW!!!! :DDDDDDDD
its another way of forgetting. :)
GUNUNG LAMBAK TRIP TMRW!!!! :DDDDDDDD
its another way of forgetting. :)
2:19 PM
